The Fat Post
Two mates of mine had an argument on twitter this evening about depictions of fat people in the media. One was saying that it should be acceptable to say that really fat people are unattractive, the other disagreed.
This is something that hits a bit close to home, as my friend’s definition of unattractively fat is ‘obese’.
This is me. I am clinically obese.
As with all these discussions, it was said that it’s ‘not about you’, and ‘of course this doesn’t apply in your case’. But that doesn’t fly. Because my BMI is 30. That’s obese.
This relates to a strange problem I have with my body image.
I’m attractive. I know this because people tell me so. My clothes fit well, and I often receive compliments, sometimes from people I’m not in love with. So that’s nice.
I also quite like my body. I make a lot of my own clothes, and I enjoy the challenge of modifying patterns and making things fit my curves and bumps, that are so different from other people’s curves and bumps.
But sometimes, when I look in the mirror, I think I’m looking at someone else. Someone gross, huge and blob-like. Because I’m often told I’m attractive, and the women on the front of magazines and in adverts are attractive, therefore, subconsciously, I think I must look like them. I don’t. I’m 5ft 4in and size 16. I am clinically obese.
I’m not insecure about my body or my weight, or looking to change either. But about twice a month I experience this weird disconnect. Because I am attractive, but not what I’m told by adverts to believe is attractive. It usually takes me about an hour to feel like my body is mine again.
So, it would be nice to have more examples of people who are fatter held up as attractive. It would be lovely to have examples of healthy people at all weights being held up as paragons of beauty. I would like to see the sort of people that I find attractive held up as attractive in public arenas.
And don’t just tell me that it doesn’t apply to me because I’m pretty. I am technically obese. If you are saying things about ‘fat people’, then you are saying them about me.